I am sitting here thinking about yesterday, and if I am being honest, it was not a good day.

It was one of those days where nothing felt easy. My mind felt busy, but my body felt slow. I kept trying to move forward, trying to check things off my list, trying to get myself into a better headspace but it just did not come together the way I wanted it to.

Those days can be frustrating. You start questioning yourself. You wonder why you feel like this and why you cannot just snap out of it. It is even harder when you have had good days before it. When you know what it feels like to feel strong again.

Healing is not a straight line. It is not a place you arrive at and stay.

It is moments. It is days where you feel like yourself again, and then days where you feel like you are right back in the middle of it.

Yesterday felt like one of those middle days.

Not the beginning, but not the easy part either.

What made it harder was trying to fight it. Trying to make it go away instead of letting it be what it was. The truth is not every day is meant to be fixed. Not every feeling needs to be solved right away.

Some days are just meant to be felt.

That does not mean you are going backwards. It does not mean you are not growing. It just means you are still in it.

I think about how often we do not talk about these days. We share the progress, the strength and the moments where we feel like we are finally getting somewhere but we do not always talk about the days in between. The quiet, heavy and confusing days where you are just trying to hold it together.

Those days matter too.

Those are the days where you learn how to sit with yourself. Where you learn that even when you feel off, even when you do not show up as your best, even when you do not get everything done, you are still okay.

You are still moving forward, even if it does not feel like it.

Maybe that is what yesterday was for me.

Not a step back, just a slower step forward.

If today feels a little lighter, I am going to take that. If it does not, I am going to remind myself that I have had hard days before and I have made it through every single one of them.

Sometimes that is enough.

— Jenny 🤍